I came home, cherishing the kids. I told them about Canaan and Nathan asked about Celebral Palsy. I pieced a lesson about commiting our weakness to God who will provide everything we need.
In times like this, HE would give us comfort and is our refuge.
ISaiah 40:31 says - but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
My nephew who is staying with us for 2 weeks thought and said that Canaan did not live because he did something bad in his previous life, Natasha and Nathan rebutt immediately that there is no previous life. Life is a gift from God. Nathan added that God has a purpose for this to happen.
Dinah, Canaan's aunt wrote this:
Dearest Canaan,
You came so quickly, you left so soon.
You were so little, yet so big in our hearts.
You were so fragile, yet you fought with such strength.
You spoke no words, yet you taught us so much.
You lived for a little while, yet you live in our hearts forever.
You showed us who we are.
You showed us who God is.
Thank you.
Goodbye, my little nephew.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Gracious Grace
When it comes to death to a close one, there is little comfort other people can provide. All the more a mother losing her newborn. Only God can soothe that deep pain.
Canaan came to the world during Christmas 07 and had his last fight on Monday. Though it all, God was present. I cry for a friend who is hurting that much, I cry for a child who has not had a chance to get to know his love ones better, I cry for Grace who demonstrating true faith, I cry for God's shower of love and blessings though this ordeal, I cry because I remember.
Bye Bye baby Canaan
Canaan joining Jesus
Canaan came to the world during Christmas 07 and had his last fight on Monday. Though it all, God was present. I cry for a friend who is hurting that much, I cry for a child who has not had a chance to get to know his love ones better, I cry for Grace who demonstrating true faith, I cry for God's shower of love and blessings though this ordeal, I cry because I remember.
Bye Bye baby Canaan
Canaan joining Jesus
Friday, January 11, 2008
....
On the way to office this morning, I spotted a good looking chap at the lobby. And he is a staff. Fwah, some department finally made some good sense in hiring.
... hmm, life is getting mundane to being caring about trival things eh?
... hmm, life is getting mundane to being caring about trival things eh?
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
I can only imagine
A source of inspiration for:
- providing good stewardship over my kids
- Do that impossible runs or biathalon or even triathalon
The story of the Hoyt team.
- providing good stewardship over my kids
- Do that impossible runs or biathalon or even triathalon
The story of the Hoyt team.
Keeping the goal alive
Got my butt off my comfy sofa and did my practice run with Nathan. I did 2Km in 20mins and he did 1.5km though he walked more than jog.
The air was breezy and cool. We saw vibrant coloured blooms and a blue bird decided to pop by our path!
There was no particular excitement to the new year. 2008 seemed to just a better adjusted 2007. I had a lot of reservation and uncertainty when I first joined, albeit the wonderful support system provided. There were times when I jitter at the thought of my boss throwing new challenges or the time he was absent.
He dropped the bomb last Sat telling me he had to report for reservist for 2 weeks, I felt that I could totally handle part of his job. However, I hope that there would be no major hiccups I have to manage.
The only item that makes my adrenaline run faster is more events planning! 1 in Feb, 1 before Summer and the 2 in Nov for USA. There will be stuff to do for Australia and UK in the second half of the year. Although, the pay still suffer that bit in comparison to doing sales. I still don't have the urge to move back.
I had only wanted to do a 10km and really just maybe the 21km for the year end Standard Chartered run. My colleague is tempting me to do a Biathalon - run + bike. KK gave me a wet blanket last night and I was pretty upset though he is right. I have just learn to crawl and now I want to jump over the high pole? I am not defeated by mere words but by the lazy bug in me. It'd mean alot of training with clinics. Can I cope being a person who wants almost everything right - at home and at work. Wiser to handle something I can swallow.
The rain suddenly disrupts my thoughts.. Wendy asks who reads my blog. There was no real answer at that point because I felt I was still a comment whore. Now, these are irrelevant. I write when I have the inspiration, when I read back my blogs, they are pretty meaningful. I thought that my kids at 6 and 2.5 yo back in year 2003 were big, I had wanted to be a SAHM when both are in their primary school (didn't happen afterall), pics had to be scanned, I took photos and uploaded the kids' school projects and achievements... fwah, so much took place in and about our lives. Though firm friendships didn't form, I am still glad I wrote.
And I'd keep writing.
Thank God for always being in and around us.
The air was breezy and cool. We saw vibrant coloured blooms and a blue bird decided to pop by our path!
There was no particular excitement to the new year. 2008 seemed to just a better adjusted 2007. I had a lot of reservation and uncertainty when I first joined, albeit the wonderful support system provided. There were times when I jitter at the thought of my boss throwing new challenges or the time he was absent.
He dropped the bomb last Sat telling me he had to report for reservist for 2 weeks, I felt that I could totally handle part of his job. However, I hope that there would be no major hiccups I have to manage.
The only item that makes my adrenaline run faster is more events planning! 1 in Feb, 1 before Summer and the 2 in Nov for USA. There will be stuff to do for Australia and UK in the second half of the year. Although, the pay still suffer that bit in comparison to doing sales. I still don't have the urge to move back.
I had only wanted to do a 10km and really just maybe the 21km for the year end Standard Chartered run. My colleague is tempting me to do a Biathalon - run + bike. KK gave me a wet blanket last night and I was pretty upset though he is right. I have just learn to crawl and now I want to jump over the high pole? I am not defeated by mere words but by the lazy bug in me. It'd mean alot of training with clinics. Can I cope being a person who wants almost everything right - at home and at work. Wiser to handle something I can swallow.
The rain suddenly disrupts my thoughts.. Wendy asks who reads my blog. There was no real answer at that point because I felt I was still a comment whore. Now, these are irrelevant. I write when I have the inspiration, when I read back my blogs, they are pretty meaningful. I thought that my kids at 6 and 2.5 yo back in year 2003 were big, I had wanted to be a SAHM when both are in their primary school (didn't happen afterall), pics had to be scanned, I took photos and uploaded the kids' school projects and achievements... fwah, so much took place in and about our lives. Though firm friendships didn't form, I am still glad I wrote.
And I'd keep writing.
Thank God for always being in and around us.
my last written post in LJ
2007 had been honestly a fruitful year and the months flew a little too fast. Recalling the good bits and achievements of the year. I have short fuse memory for bad things.
Work
- Thank God for a helpful, understanding and can-click mentor/immediate male reporting boss. Thank God for a Christian lady overall boss.
- Given a lot of opportunities to learn and push through some initiatives I suggested.
- Given the flexibility to balance work and family time.
- Strictly no work after work.
- I have a new laptop and it fits my coach hampton bag. woot.
Home
- Nathan and Natasha did well for their school work.
- Thank God for providing great teachers to guide them.
- Tasha achieved honours for Ballet and Distinction for Guzeng. The highest grades, totally impressed with her.
- Nathan's condition did not need any more surgery and schedule to see Dr Hui again Nov/Dec08.
- Nathan displayed several grow up milestones ... ie : finish meal in 10 mins, it used to take him at least 20 to 40 mins. He joins his schools extra activities on his own accord and informs me (not asking me for permission - Thank God they are all healthy and good activities).
- When my domestic helper went on home leave (and didn't come back), they help with simple housechores voluntarily.
- We are hooked on playing board games - Settlers, Queen's Necklace, Blokus.
- We have Wii. hubby is tennis pro, Tasha is a Bowling pro, Nathan and I are Guitar heroes.
- Thank God for good health.
- Nathan performed as part of the Chinese Orchestra for a Mid Autumn festival celebration.
- Nathan performed as a member at a Malay dance for School's carnival.
- Tasha enjoys her P1 tremendously.
- They attended the ARISE camp.
- The old folks at home are reasonably healthy.
Self
- toured Japan (Tokyo, Osaka and Hakone) and USA (New York, Washington, Niagara falls, Lancaster). Somewhat a dream come true?
- obtain PC to play 9 hole golf.
- ran 5km at a GE woman's run.
- won air tickets worth $3K and $20 robinsons vouchers.
What do I want for 2008?
- Good Health for all in family
- good pay increment!
- do a mission trip
- pick up painting or drawing
- do a 10km run
- hubby to take up his Masters (in whatever course).
- Kids to do well for school and ECAs
- hone my golf skills
- Able to take on the job challenges given (more marketing event planning!)
- less verbal fights for us
- good domestic helper
- take up a course or two to improve on Sunday school teaching
- attend a seminar or two for Christian life improvement.
- try not to repeat the bad bits of 2007.
CHEERS to a brand new year!
Work
- Thank God for a helpful, understanding and can-click mentor/immediate male reporting boss. Thank God for a Christian lady overall boss.
- Given a lot of opportunities to learn and push through some initiatives I suggested.
- Given the flexibility to balance work and family time.
- Strictly no work after work.
- I have a new laptop and it fits my coach hampton bag. woot.
Home
- Nathan and Natasha did well for their school work.
- Thank God for providing great teachers to guide them.
- Tasha achieved honours for Ballet and Distinction for Guzeng. The highest grades, totally impressed with her.
- Nathan's condition did not need any more surgery and schedule to see Dr Hui again Nov/Dec08.
- Nathan displayed several grow up milestones ... ie : finish meal in 10 mins, it used to take him at least 20 to 40 mins. He joins his schools extra activities on his own accord and informs me (not asking me for permission - Thank God they are all healthy and good activities).
- When my domestic helper went on home leave (and didn't come back), they help with simple housechores voluntarily.
- We are hooked on playing board games - Settlers, Queen's Necklace, Blokus.
- We have Wii. hubby is tennis pro, Tasha is a Bowling pro, Nathan and I are Guitar heroes.
- Thank God for good health.
- Nathan performed as part of the Chinese Orchestra for a Mid Autumn festival celebration.
- Nathan performed as a member at a Malay dance for School's carnival.
- Tasha enjoys her P1 tremendously.
- They attended the ARISE camp.
- The old folks at home are reasonably healthy.
Self
- toured Japan (Tokyo, Osaka and Hakone) and USA (New York, Washington, Niagara falls, Lancaster). Somewhat a dream come true?
- obtain PC to play 9 hole golf.
- ran 5km at a GE woman's run.
- won air tickets worth $3K and $20 robinsons vouchers.
What do I want for 2008?
- Good Health for all in family
- good pay increment!
- do a mission trip
- pick up painting or drawing
- do a 10km run
- hubby to take up his Masters (in whatever course).
- Kids to do well for school and ECAs
- hone my golf skills
- Able to take on the job challenges given (more marketing event planning!)
- less verbal fights for us
- good domestic helper
- take up a course or two to improve on Sunday school teaching
- attend a seminar or two for Christian life improvement.
- try not to repeat the bad bits of 2007.
CHEERS to a brand new year!
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