I have not fully recover my pain from my dad's departure to be with the Lord. Although I have the faith and am very sure that he is in heaven now, I can help but to feel pangs of sadness when I miss him.When I saw his lifeless body on 16th March 2006 morning, I could not believe that he is gone. In April, he'll be 60 and we had intended to do a big birthday bash for him. He could have waited till then... why didn't he? I wanted to shake him up from his sleep, I was in denial at that point and thought it was all a joke. He would snap open his eyes and let out a laugh. It was only when the paramedics turned his hardened body that I realised that he is really gone. I wanted the clock to turn back to the night before, to pray with him and wish he would stay with us for a few more years. The night before, he was feeling terrible from some medication he had taken to ease the pain from his diabetic medicine, I wasn't there for him cos I thought he could pull it through like before and I would bring him to the hospital on the weekend. Before he passed on peacefully, he tidied up the mattress and blanket he was sleeping on. It seems amazing how he looked, the weight of the world had suddenly disappear and there was minimal wrinkles on his face. But he was alone sleeping in the living room when it happened.
The last time we had dinner was the reunion get together and a karaoke session. He still seemed strong at that time! I can still remember his voice, his laughter, the way he tease my children, his expression from his eyes, whatever he does he always has good intentions. Foolish maybe but never evil... I wished I had done a thousand things but it's all over. No amount of regret can fill back what I could have done. I really miss him.
A life to be cherished
My nephew Isaac was born on 23rd March 2006. It was with lotsa prayer coverage as there were three rounds of umbiblical cord around his neck. Thank God for his blessings on both my sis and him. Look at this cutie pie, I made some winter melon water and this fellow made such a funny expression and the kids were in awed.
