Friday, February 18, 2005

First personal blog

*wave* new to Blogger.
Just testing out how this would be, being into another blogging world.

My first blog came about when Sandra, an ex-colleague, started her LJ, I was amused by this private club thing. Also, I wanted to keep track of my children's milestone from there but then, I did not get to be very successful in that department. Initially, you have got to have some kind of password to get an LJ privilege. Today, it is free for all ~ for a basic acct. You can pay to get it done nicely and sorts.
Angelia was the first to give comment and welcome speech. Well, it kinda triggered off a bad habit ~ I became a comment whore. I check emails so that I won't miss any comments someone would make on my blog.

Marriage

My hubby just walked away feeling dissappointed with my actions.
We had a big fight over trivial issue this morning. It was inevitably cause by STRESS. it is in the blood of most working Singapore persons.
I mentioned I would love a bowl of good purmei lor mee. He says no time, I gave pathetic look of disappointment but let him know that it was alright. He gave a last minute turn to Purmei instead of heading for River Vally. I was delighted but I knew it is also sign for thin thread. He gave me 15 mins to complete breakfast. I quickly went to queue and ordered food seeing that it is empty, I had a bag and two heavy bowls on a tray. I saw no signs of him, flashed through my brains that he is so ungentlemen to not help me carry since I paid for the food.
I sounded my displeasure and he burst. There, I was, trying to determine those yellow noodles and bits down my throat and gut and feel utterly disgusted with him. He still does not get it and hallowed at me and insist that I was not understanding.

I was like ~ hello, I did NOT ask to have him to go to purmei at the very last minute. It occur to me that I can never be dependent on him, he would give you some and make sure that he gets it back double.
I told him that dissappointment (of not eating that lor mee in the morning) is easy to forget but hurt will take a long time to heal. And there, I just cannot forgive him at this juncture that he had done just that to me. How could I. forgetful I may be but i know that these hurts will always haunt me.

at least for now