Monday, June 18, 2007

This maid thing...

is driving me nuts. I animated over lunch to a colleague on what happened last night with my maid and I confirm it in my head that I should not be relying so much on her.

Over the last one and half years of hiring her to do the job, in fairness, she had been rather quick to pick up the skills which I wanted her to. When she is in the right frame of mind (not thinking of her own home problem), she handles my housework and kids okay. She does not steal or see other man (I hope). Although I tell her not to make friends, she disobeyed, I have yet to really nip it.

But every 4-5 months, she will act up. She will give me attitude, talk back when I told her that the work is done incorrectly. And it really makes my blood boil when she does that. She quite so often has done the exact opposite of what I expect of her. And it usually elevates when she calls home and thinks that her mum is not managing her send home funds - like help her dad with his medical fee.

It happened again, starting from last tues when I find it strange that her dinner presentation was bad. I suspected that she must have called home again and got affected by her family. But I kept mum and observed her. Then yesterday, Natasha had a fall and scraped her knee. With that, there was a small open wound and very dirty feet. I instructed Natasha to wash up the wound to avoid infection but she forgot. I have not even undress for the night as I was packing other stuff and she asked Natasha to change into her long pants pajamas, which Tasha blurr blurr follow instructions. I was mad at both of them so I reprimanded both. Natasha quickly changed into her short pants and I turn to the maid and asked her why she tells my daughter to do the wrong thing. It was not the first time she was told that wounds needs to be cleaned up. I did not have the time to do it immediately that's why I was mad that it happened too quickly and wrongly! She answered back that it was Natasha's fault. When I say that she was responsible for the wrong, she stared and "gin" at me - giving my attitude to tell me that I have wrongly accused her!!! My blood was definitely boiling at 100 degrees at this point so I ask her to get out of my sight, she answered back " so you ask me to go out one huh!". I fummed and I think my blood pressure must have gone up to by leaps. I pulled her shirt and bring her to my hubs and asks him to talk to her because I would slap her anytime.

When I cooled down, i asked her to point out what is going on. She admitted that she called home to find out that her dad is "tortured" under her mum. She says that she wants to go home to rest and bring her dad out and stay with her grandma first.
i told her that she's free to go but continued to nag at her because I was thinking of the hard work of training her and I have to start all over again.
My hubs hit the jackpot by showing her that if she continues for another 7 months, she has XXX amount. If she goes back now, she'll have to pay her air ticket and have only XX amount left. How much help can she give her dad with the XX amount now.

Before I slept, I felt I was stuck. Let her go and I have to train another one for another 3 months, may have chance that I have a problematic one too. Let her stay, I cannot be sure when she acts up again. Argh, the pain.

She apologises this morning and tells me she wants to continue to work. I just told her off that if she acts up again, I will not nag or hesitate to let her go and went on to work.

I called my Father-IL to go to my place to check on my girl so that I am assured that things does not go out of hand - just in case.

I am gonna do maid hunting again. Not so confident in her this time, compared to the last time. Perhaps it's because I have been alot nicer to her her yet she gives me such attitude which I cannot forgive so easily. when she first came, I set alot of firm rules so I may not be the easiest person to like at that time.

Aiyah, this is so frustrating. As a work outside home mum, I am just so helpless. I love my kids and I love my current job. There's gotta be some better way to handle this trapped situation, except, it might cost me alot more too. *sigh*

what a weekend!

Natasha is such a darling, she took some materials which I was preparing for Sunday school and started to do her father's day card for hubs.
As it turns out, it was a touching piece of work. My hubs got his affirmation of being a great dad from his little girl. The card says he is great because he teaches her everything! I am jealous. I didn't get anything that will jerk my tears on mother's day. heh, but I'm glad that my hubs is a great dad in the eyes of my children.
What I was really please with the little piece of work was that when she did it, she asks no one for help. At 6.5 years old, she has proven that she's independent and loving. Plus she can write passages on her own.

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I never really know when is the dumpling festival. Every year, the only thing I know is to eat the delicious dumplings my MIL makes.
Some years ago, I tried to make the dumplings but always fail the last part of wrapping. It is really difficult and I gave up since. This year, I am very determine to get at least one out by myself. So on Sat, I set my mind, my soul, my hands to take on the task.
It took me 3 hours to finally accomplish the last step of wrapping. And I only did ONE. My skills needs lotsa practice. My sisters-IL and MIL had already done 170. haha, sounds like a loser hor. Hubs had to rub it in and told me to practise with sand. er horkay... growl.

The weather yesterday was so perfect. It was windy, non humid, dark clouds but no signs of rain.
We went biking at our nearby park. I rented the double bike and rode it with Nathan. We spent a great 1.5hrs being friends. Natasha and I did a 15mins ride on the double bike and she talked non-stop. haha.
They enjoyed it so much that they hope we can do it again.

We headed for dinner at trusted Pu Tien restaurant

Only at the orginal one. It's the second time we went back to the place. They provide valet parking, free corkage and good food with reasonable price. Another thumbs up for them for performing under stress. It was so packed with people but yet the quality of the food was only slightly compromised. We had:

1) Hing Hwa Combination Platter
2) Bamboo Herbal Prawns
3) Hin Hwa Fried Mee Sua
4) Deep Fried Duck with Yam paste
5) Fish soup
6) brinjal with pork floss (new dish)
7) fried bun with pork strips
8) sweet sour pork with lychee
9) Sea cucumber with vegetables

We wanted the home made bean curd but it was a sold out. too bad.

For 14 persons with the above dishes, we spent 390 bucks. My MIL was worried the bill will be about $500 plus, judging that the food was really yummy.

There was no pic taken because I was too hungry since we biked before dinner. Also, everyone was "snatching" food cos dinner started at 8pm.

The slight drop in standard was the mee sua. It was not fried the way I wanted it. I like the dry version but yesterday, they gave us the wet one. The fish soup, was not consistent. The first one we had sometime ago, the soup had more flavour. It added some fried dried scallops and shallots. There was none found in the soup yesterday although it was still yummy.

the food pics I took the first time we were there..









Wednesday, June 13, 2007

what the heck...

Before I posting lesser in LJ and more in my blogger site, I could have been appear slightly more different then and now.
I still post in my blogger but I've decided to post a little more in LJ since i like my new layout. I also wanted to try out the new posting experience. There's a few extra feature which I thought was really interesting. And I still read up most of the LJ mummies blog.

the unfortunate thing is though, I am less concious of what I post. I used to be rather careful of what I post but since blogging elsewhere, I realise that this is a larger community.

Like the one I posted for brokeback, i say what I thought, point blank. No holding back. Tell me that I have bad grammar, heck. I can't spell, heck. Don't agree with me, heck. My post is messy, heck.

Okay, that being said. Please don't get me wrong. I am still a nice and sweet person when you are the same :)

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Life's like that...

Besides some white hairs that persists on my head. I sometimes get into self denial that I'm in my 30s. Well, there is always little harm to think you are 28 as long as I behave resonably mature... err, right?

Then, I am slap with the reality with two instances and am reminded and a little more persuaded that I have grown wiser being in the 30s.

1st incident:
The exits from the trains are mostly on the right side of the station and makes the train station at Pasir ris more crowded on the right than left. I wanted to top up the value of my transport card when I realised that the woman 3 persons before me ain't getting no where. I quickly take a peek on the other side and saw no persons blocking and made my way there. It takes approx 8 mins to finish the transaction of topping up. At the 6th min, the lady in her 20s whom was queuing before me came to my left side machine to get her single trip refund. Her friend chided her for not coming to that side earlier (I then was about to turn and saw the other side still as crowded and people does not want to leave the queue to get their transaction done on our side). Then the lady in her 20s replied with loads of pride and slightly raised voice.
"well, some gals have boobs and some have brains, I rather be the one who has boobs."
Alrighty then, my head was replying : I'd have both, thanks very much.
That's is what women of 30s wisely thinks.

2nd incident:
one popular joke about ugly women was this guy went for a blind date and the partner turned up rather unpleasant to the eye. He sat there gentlemanly and down 4 glasses and beer. With each beer, the date becomes prettier and prettier. At the 4th glass, the date has great figure and celebrity looks.
I was standing in a peak hour MRT cabin when 3 .. well, boys in their 20s decided to boost how much they know about gals. Because it was crowded, my back was turn against them. But they were right behind me and spoke pretty loudly.
They lament that with the selection they have, how would they be able to procreate *ahem*. One commented that he has to get himself drunk everyday to get himself to bed with his wife if that's the case. Another then described the joke (as above) to another whom sounds like a Thai.
On the 3rd station, I managed to get a seat and as I sat, I faced them. Alas, they should really look themselves in the mirror. Like Piggy in the journey to the west, a chinese proverbs says: Piggy stares at the mirror, inside and outside is not human. Same thing applies to these boys in their 20s. Please, you are no hunk nor sauve. Nerd, pimply, stout and bad fashion sense - the girls you get suits you well. Thank you very much.

My hubby is watching Pursuit for happyness and I realised that it is the best show to play for Father's Day next week. They can comprehend the child care Christopher (the young boy) goes to, the exasperation Chris Garner felt, the love he wants to give his kid. My hub is feeling all that now.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Hakone - without Mt Fuji

We travelled by bullet train from Tokyo city to Hakone. To see the place proper, for S$50/adult and S$25/kid, you have a 3 Day pass that allows you to take whatever transport - train, cable, sea, bus around the area. The highlight here is Mt Fuji scenery, the hot spring mt, the hot spring spa resorts and delicious set meals.

tokyo pics

I really shd have invested some time to do picasa much earlier *slap forehead*. I find it tedious to upload pics one by one and had been looking to doing collage for my pics and now i did it within an hour.
the pics from tokyo - 25th May to 27th May.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Back from Holidays

Holidays always seems so short, especially when you want to enjoy more.

Have been back to work on Monday. We reached home by cab at 1.30am on sunday. we slept till 10.30am and decided to do a feast on Prata brunch. the kids and us finished up some 4 egg and 4 cheese pratas and some indian rojak, milo dinasaurs and Teh Halia. Yumzzz.

still sorting out the pictures and I found that my ex-Nikon (now Nathan's camera) takes quality pictures compared to my look pretty Sony.

Japan has been facinating and fun but ohhh so tiring. Most of the time, hubs is the one who was get people on the right track to the right place, like a semi tour leader. By the 6th day, hubs seemed to be saturated by the planning and the directing so my nephew and me had to try to decipher the messy train routes and by doing it independently, it had certainly taught us Japan places well!

the good bits:
We totally enjoyed our days at Universal Studio, Disneysea, Disneyland, the stay at Sheraton at Disney resort. We spent some little time at a nice park with that great weather, did some shopping and window shopping at Ginza. Eat and walk the fish market. We caught up a friend who had worked in Japan for some time.
There were lots and lots of opportunities for train rides. At least for a long time, we won't lament not having to be able to travel by train before. Furthermore, the trains were efficient and comfortable.
I was pleasantly surprised that the people there are much more civilised than homeground.
Oh, and bonus was that my Nike mary jane served me superbly well!

The favourite thing I gain out of this trip was that I got to know my children alot more. really quality time spent together...

Nathan at 10 prefers to be with his cousin friends so most of the time, he'll look for their company. He spends his money rather wisely when it comes to buying souvenirs and such. He gives cool poses and tells me not to worry about him taking rides on his own. yeah, right. There was this ride (snoopy land splash) he wanted to take with Si Hong. It seats two persons each ride. I was alone as Natasha decided not to take the ride. When we reach the top, all of the sudden, he wanted to back out and sit with me. Si Hong was pretty stunned that he would be on his own. this son of mine finally decided to be loyal and stuck with his friend and took the same boat with him. Thank God though, as it turn out, the ride was not so scary afterall. He certainly learnt a lesson not be over confident on his bravery.

Natasha is so sweet and shows so much affection that it melts my heart throughout these time time. She would sing herself to sleep when we pack our stuffs. She does her own bath now (yes, i am still the freak mum who'll worry that she did not get the shampoo out of her hair), she'll try to make sure that her things are nicely packed. She'll kiss our hands when she happy. She'll give us bear hugs when she feels so loved and wants to love back. She takes all the rides with us, as long as she feels protected by us. Her poses are now so cute. She says the darnest things to make us break into laughters. And she is persistent when she chase after boys she like - yeah, she is into Mr Bean and Si Hui captured her heart by talking and dramas like one. haha. She points to Si Hao's groin area (who is 14 this year) and ask him what he calls it. She gives him 3 choices - kuku bird, bird bird or private part. My nephew says Penis and she does not understand. Hub interrupted and told them it's groin. arh, so farny!

And they don't turn like helicopters when they sleep anymore.

*sigh* These are great memories that will hardly be erased from our memory.

the not so good bits:
there was little time to shop, can't really do it with a peace of mind with 6 children and 5 other adults with you. Just as well since the things there are so steep.
The other few regrets were that we didn't had the chance to spend more time at Hakone (the Mt Fuji resort), Mt Fuji was evasive - did not see it at all and we did not fulfill the Kyoto part of the itinary. We also spend alot of frustrated time doing what others want to do and time wasting to us. Our hotels at Tokyo city and Osaka city was not comfortable. Tokyo city's so packed with people perpertually on your face all the time!

Other insights:
People in Osaka tends to be more helpful. They are twice more civilised than people in Tokyo. The food is nicer and less expensive. The shops at some places can cost three times more expensive. We spend about 2 hours at Narita and found that it's a quaint little town which we would have like to spend more time in, much more than Tokyo. There are many restaurants but since we are on our own, we have no idea which gives the best value. We had fair share of good and bad ones.
The bread there are very nice, even those you buy from their convenient stores.
Hubs and I will do a separate trip from the kids the next time. Pics in next post.

Next on our wish list:
1) Hokkaido
2) Israel (With church)
3) New Zealand then Hawaii route
4) Europe - quite far fetch though

Thursday, May 24, 2007

shoes...

Ever since this Monday, I've been fretting over which shoes to wear to Japan. I hate the fact that I have to wear trackshoes the entire trip - as there'll be many chances of walking and this climb at 5th station at Mount Fuji. However, I will look "orbit" if I'm shopping.

So when I saw this pair of Mary Jane from Nike and I had vouchers. I grab. YAY! I'd be looking cool man! yeah, me the vain pot.


Wednesday, May 23, 2007

so many changes

In a short 3 months span, the last company I was with had so many changes.

1) ex-RO went to HP
2) ex-bid partner went to Oracle
3) an AM became an SM (2 level jump)
4) an SM for commercial sector became a Deputy Director for Govt sector
5) ex-cube neighbour resign, digging info on where he's going from him.. will he go back to DSTA?
6) my ex-VP leaving next week, perhaps going to Acatel?

It must be such a freak place eh. But some of them worked for 5-6 years before moving to a MNC.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

it's relag relag time la

I mean to say this last Wednesday.. phew, Nathan's exams are finally over. And double phew that he has only 4 papers to go through. This time, there were not many late nights as we prep some assessment work since last month. But I realised that his science needed a lot of help, he manage to scrap through a 30/50 for a practice paper and I thought it was quite poor. After going through the rounds with him (I had to buy one more set of assessment), it was apparent that P4 science is really not that simple and straightforward anymore. Water droplet, water vapour cannot be interchangeable. You'll need to know what prevents water pollution, why would birds freeze to death if there's an oil spill. goodness! It's only a P4 paper?!
Then, I learnt that I should be buying $39 science assessment book, not the typical $5-6 ones to teach pro-per-ly. don't expect definite high marks even if you know the concept, it's by chance..
I don't buy it but I know that it's just not that easy anymore. It'll be an anal task to teach Natasha when her time comes..

The upside is that this boy tries to recollect what was being taught and explained by us and manage to get an 88/100 for the paper.

The other happy news he gave me was that his Chinese improved. the effort for the sunday morning chinese shows, the chinese doremon VCDs and speaking in mandarin helps. At least Band 1 for this time, it was Band 2 whole of last year.

His English and Maths had always been on the consistent high 90s, so I am glad that it remained so. thank God for such a sensible boy who will tries his best.

After the last grumbling on the trip, things are so looking brighter. Basically, I gave up and asked God to take over. During the Malaysia workshop, things were still bleak because so many hotels rejected our bookings (too many people, too close the date). I verbalised to KK that God will take care of it and there is nothing to worry. It happened.
His brother secured a place in Tokyo for all of us.
We managed to get Osaka and Hakone's hotel at a bargain and more.
KK managed to get some points with BIL's sheraton card for a free night and we are staying at Sheraton Tokyo bay which provides shuttle to Disneyland!

Plus, our itinary looks terrific and it does not seem like we just want to touch and go from place to place. So excited for the trip.

Thank God for taking over. He will keep us safe for the trip and we will definitely enjoy ourselves. We will remember 27th May, the Global prayer date.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Grrrrouse and GRRRRowl

why??!???!??!!! why must hubs second sis tag along for this Japan trip which we have been trying to plan. Why must they be so testing????

2 months ago, all of the sudden, Hub's second sis decided to tag along. With a family of 6, I hardly think it is possible to plan Japan with them. Previously, the Malaysia trips (once at Malacca which they took us 9 hours to reach - YAH, ask me how they did that, and 2nd round at Kuantan, they spend 2 ENTIRE days FISHING.. bloody cukorrroooss.. they might as well fish at Pasir Ris park, Bedok port, whatever!!!)

When they decided to join, I told hubs that they WILL travel around OUR itinary. I pretty much left him to do the job. He did a poor negotiation. DId not book the hotels earlier and now we are pretty much stranded with EXPENSIVE hotel!!!! super duber pissed.

Now I am grousing. It better dunch turn into GROWLING!!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

what a frenzy month

My dear hubby got himself hospitalised. There was this cyst that is growing on his chest. He turn down the first doc's offer to get the pus out before it became serious. So when it grew too unbearable, he checked himself into the hospital after he sent me to church the sunday before i am due to leave for work trip.
That afternoon, I had to do the groceries real quick, cook some soup for him and prep the kids for school for the week. All these would not have been possible if I had been frustrated or panic during the process. God was definitely with me.

Next day, (16th Apr/Mon)
I was really daze when my RO and I took off to the San franscisco. I forced myself to nap on the flight and halfway thru, i wonder if it was worth it since so much time was wasted travelling. Plus the checks were really stringent. It was worse on domestic flights, shall not indulge in elaborating.

After checking into the nice quiet town in Redwood city, we took off to San Fran city. And as I was not appropriate dressed for 11 degrees celcius, I ended up with a cold sore on my lip. Otherwise, it would have been a real treat that half day at the city. We ventured the shops at Old Navy, Victoria Secrets, took the tram to Fisherman's wharf... The sunset was a beauty.
The place we put up was somewhat like a dorm. Pleasantly peaceful and my room view was the little airport that holds some jet planes.


Marriot townsuite - 15 mins walk to work place in Redwood city


San Francisco city

Next night, Jake and family with Jeff/Wendy arranged dinner at "Yeah", a Malaysian restaurant near our office. Not fantastic food but i really love the company.


yeah!

The winds made the weather really cold although it's suppose to be spring. To talk work will be too boring, Fast forward...

Friday, I packed to get ready for Wendy to pick me up to Dinah's place for dinner. Dinah cooks.. wooo.. hoo.


Dinah the cook

one of the dish

Wendy and Denzel


the dinner

then Wendy prepared a nice bed with a nice little bear to accompany.. It was really nice and comfy.


isn't it lovely

It still felt surreal that nite when i fell asleep at the Lui's place, I think already at that point, I missed my hub and kids a great deal. All set for the next two days of fun.
WE shopped, eat, visited Golden Gate, Sausalito. We also had quite a bit of fun trying to take our own pics.. see this:









Jeff and Wendy also made a trip going up the famous San fran city slope and down the Lombard. I'll always remember that great memory they made.
Million thanks to Jake/Dinah and family and JEff and Wendy. I was genuinely happy to be able to spend time with these old buddies.. we've really come a long way :)

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

In the BIG APPLE city

Many pictures to post, many things to write, loved the different culture and stuff but no mood to update. Cos I am so home sick. Out too long.

Friday, April 13, 2007

the children we make

On the way to work at 10.30am (that's another story), I witnessed something that was disturbing. A man came up together with a school kid (from St Hilda's secondary school) and was trying to ask him for directions (in Mandarin). They were sitting directly opposite me. The man must have scribbled something on his little notebook and he was pointing at the book and telling the boy that he needs to get to Buona Vista MRT, he wanted to know if it was the right train he had hopped on. The kid had no idea, shrug off to his questions most times, did not even try to see if there was any way he could help but seemed despair. I was on my iPod but I could hear the guy, not that he was loud but I noticed what he was asking. In the end, the man just slump on the chair and gave up. The kid with a nonchalant expression, went back on his earpiece.
I promptly took off my earpiece and said " Sian sheng, ru guo ni yao tao Buona Vista, ni zai tui de che" He was so thankful and immediately sat up.

The immediate thought was: what if it was Nathan or Natasha? I would have so shameful of their little knowledge of singapore and worse, unhelpfulness! this kid could jolly well be like my kids, always being fetched around so they don't really know where does the train lines go. In most cases, parents move nearer to the school their children attends, so that they don't have to travel so *far* and be tired out. We worry so much about children's school results and did not care much about their GK or even allow their survival instinct to run!
when I was younger, I started taking public bus at the age of 8 from Commonwealth to Middle Road. There was this time when me and my sis got lost and we end up at the terminal. The kind bus uncle brought me to another bus and told us where to stop.

Some of my friends argued that it's too dangerous, our time has kind souls but these days, you never know...
Are there too many excuses these days for us to pamper our kids. So much that they are given too much but does not learn how to earn it?
I am as guilty as any parents who pampers but thank God, this is such a good incident that "opened" my eyes to see what is really happening!
Not that I will start to take away lest they suffer withdrawal syndrome, but I would really start to really scrutinise on my givings. It's disastrous to think how painful it'll be for them when they have to vie for themselves and find that they are not at all equipped.

Monday, April 09, 2007

Blessings of God

It's so surreal to think that next Monday at this time, I would be on the flight to San Jose office. I would be visiting New York too!
This is only the first trip, there will be more trips to come. The next one would probably be in October for an event we have to organise.

I would never have imagine such things happening to me at all, if not for God's blessings and intervention. When God provides, He gives the best.

There are times when I could almost go green with envy for those people who has the opportunity to travel for work. I forget that I also had my share .... the first that was given was Bangkok for a workshop, then Malacca several times for presentations to internal colleagues, then to Hong Kong to present to a customer. Maybe it because it's still within Asia.
Now USA! Have not packed for my trip yet and quite lost in planning what to do besides work. Boy, am I glad that there are good pals in west coast to bring me around.

excited.. excited.. excited..

trashing in blog

There were many posts which i did not put up.

Some two weeks ago, hubs and I made memories with the children. We add 3 more badminton rackets to our collection and played a casual game. The children enjoyed it so much and asks why we started so late.

Hubs bought our dog for a "saloon" hair cut and now she's looking so good.

Hubs did his final year for the reservist.

It was hubs birthday (with his mother - lunar calendar) last Thurs. Eunice helped me make a homemade Durian birthday cake for them.

I'm so into Heroes as well as reading heroes of faith (John Bunyan - author of Pilgrim progress).

We (children and I) visited Cole - Anny's second offspring. As cute as a button. It was nice catching up with Anny and teasing Dayne.

Treated myself to an iPOD nano and Nike armband. That should motivate me to do more jogs now. Running 2km is not an issue anymore. I am gonna stretch it further.
Also bought some knee guard to cushion the impacts of runs.

Monday, April 02, 2007

bee-see

On top of the children's and work schedules.. suddenly, there are like added items for me to do.

3rd - hubby has farewell, gotta fetch him home after fetching son from class.
4th - got to buy durian to pass to friend, she will do up the cake for hubby
4th - take over the tab to do up April's birthday celebration for the dept
5th - hubby's and MIL's birthday. collect cake, arrange people to meet, delegate stuff for people to buy and prepare.

6th - want to totally nuah!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Wonderful Morning!

Hubs needed to reach Nee soon camp at 7.30am. We were early when we set out, which is a rare on a Saturday.

The morning view was so beautiful! There was no chance to take any pics as hubs friend arrived... but to describe it a little of what was seen..
The sun shines from the back of some rolling clouds. The dash of orange, yellow rays on the white clouds and the grey blue sky was breathe-taking. The patch of green grass in front of the MRT station had a layer of morning mist.

God says it all. The creator of everything. Thank you Lord for such a beautiful morning with such a sight.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Distorted?

I met up an ex-colleague (about my age) over lunch today. We weren't exactly close before, I was in sales and she was my marketing support. There was more work talk than personal sharing when we were.. well.. together.

She's now with another company and since she's in town, we arranged to meet another colleague and myself for lunch. Over the lunch chat, I soon learnt that she's determined to not be married, not have children and aims to die at the age of 45, if she does not die by then desired age, she will take an injection to end her life. She set this "plans" about 5 years ago which means she is still pretty convicted with her "plans" It didn't seem that she's joking or depressed and I am not a guillable(spelling?) person as well.
What really bothered me was the fact she said it like it's really casual and there is no way anyone would change her mind. And she's accepted Christ. I'm not trying to do any bashing upon religion but it's really disturbing to see someone who has known and loved Christ decide on something she knew would disappoint Him.
It was quite a depressing session. The other colleague who went along for this lunch is having marital problems. Apparently, she's already at the non-speaking stage with her spouse.

I however declared loudly that they will be in my prayers. As much as I have no idea what to pray for as I will never know what is best for them but I'll definitely ask God to give them a loving touch.
It was a long weekend for me as I was on leave on Friday. The morning half of the day was spent at father's niche. Without a doubt, we all miss him although there was significantly less tears. Mother did a prayer routine and I must say that it is impressive that she has , for the first time in her religion life, been so sincere and hold fast to the faith with God. I firmly believe that father is at rest in peace but mother just wanted to recite the petition prayers to God for the dead.

We headed for lunch at a Pu Tien restaurant. I am assuming that we went to Pu Xin which IMHO is quite outstanding and at $20 per pax, it's satifying. If the Pu Tien Seafood serves much better food, I reckon there's certainly something to look forward to. will upload some pics on lunchlater.

We spend the rest of the afternoon really lazing, nap, surf net for the Japan trip, watch Tee Vee.. then it was dinner at Man Fu Yuan restaurant with hub's parents and eldest sister. The service was first class and out of the many courses of dishes, the steamed Soon Hock is my favourite. the bill came up to be about $40 per person. That is with priviledged card, vouchers discounts.

certainly felt like a glutton for eating so much rich and expensive food. Not sure if there was any relation but I had insommnia on Sat morning... at 8am, I felt so drugged (food intoxication) that it was almost impossible to make me do any runs.

Thank God for partners who motivates. I was literally dragged out of bed, did a 1.8km jog and felt more refresh to conquer the day.

The day saw me through Isaac's birthday, PTN in church and cell meet up till 1am!

As much as I felt concussed, I promptly went to church at 9am to do my SS service. Love the kiddos. They are ever such encouragement to me.

The shopping experience at the new Giant at Tampines left me a really bad taste. It was simply too congested, noisy and dirty to have me talk about any great discounts.

To make up for the poor afternoon, I made fried fish soup for dinner after our walk at the park. That gave some comfort to start the week that is to come.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

yay.. i made it

On Mon, I managed to scrap through 1.4km run. I told myself in the mirror that I'll do 1.8km and I clocked 2.4km today!!!!!

but I took 45mins to do that, heh. jia you!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Food adventure

We had been feasting!

Last Saturday, we went to Wild Rocket with our nephews and kids. Hubby volunteered the treat cos he's forever so generous to his nephews and nieces, besides taking care of the children. The place is a bit of a maze to find though and by the time we arrive (after swimming) at 8pm, we were starving.

The verdict:
Talk about fusion food! The soup impressed me the most, it was cream of lotus root with wolfberries. It looked like yam paste but the taste is so comforting. Usually when we double boil the clear broth - lotus root soup with pork ribs, the ingredients are not consumed. The kids took no time to finish up. Good tips for me to start blending soups.

The softshell crab did not leave me much. I'd say the pepper sauce was good.

For the main course, we all gave thumbs up. The interesting orders was prob hubby's Laksa preso which looks italian (spaghetti with some green paste), smells like laksa, taste ... well both Asian and European. And my dish, the squid ink linguine. yep, not the kind of food you'll order with clients. My teeth were all inky aftermath, looking the part of pirates.

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It's oyster night on Tuesdays at Greenwood Fish market and Bistro. We would not have done this dinner on other Tuesdays cos Nathan has classes. Hubby was suppose to treat but since he has to give the best of the crop to God first, this time, I took up the tab. That will give us another excuse to feast next month ;P

Verdict:
The atmosphere reminded us of the Fisherman's wharf in Australia (tassie or Melbourne or Sydney). It's fish market that serves great fresh seafood.

The calamari does us in. It came with very complimentary salad at the bottom of those fried sotong pieces. I almost ordered that as desserts, haha. The corn soup, er, not our type. The oysters at that price and fresh, I could have at least 2 dozens. I had to control myself. We shared 15, I cannot register how many I had, I just take, dig, slurp the whole time. I won't be surprise if I had 10 and hubby had only 5. The pics are little dark as the ambience was suppose to be romantic.



The mains were red miso cod for hubby and lobster linguine for me. The cod with the red miso sauce was great when you start eating but not sustainable.
My dish was tasty, it had a dash of chilli padi in the linguine and the lobster was the size of my palm. Oiishi neh!



the cod (grilled with red miso) and mashed sweet potato



the lobster

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

surprise!

I did mention that today is the official blog day for me. As I am writing this, Nathan is at the Mediacorp's audition for Spellcast. It's just for the experience, afterall it's gonna be quite fun for him to take a look at their studio.

Okay, now for the surprise news.. *drum rolling* i won 1st prize for a reward programme I was enrolled in... a trip for 2 to Japan!!!!
I've never won anything so grand before and it's really a treat!

things I do when bored.

I resolved one request. today is offical blog day for me!!

hmmm.. hubby's bd is on the 5th of the month. IS that no wonder we are always missing the point by that little bit? my life is a bit of surprises ... good and bad ones.

Your Birthdate: December 31
You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1
You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.




Your Birthdate: April 5
People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong.You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5
You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.


so uncanny... he made his moves to "steadified" our relationship after 3 dates. And yes, he's a passionate man. Does that mean I'm not so compatible. Aiyah, married liao, too bad.

Meme

Kinda early to blog but I just wanted to take my mind off that Vietnam lead and the RFP that is driving me half nuts.

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1.Is your default picture your natural hair color?
No picture on this blog. but my hair is coloured.
2. Where was your default pic taken?
N.A.
3. What's your middle name?
Don't have one.
5. Honestly, does your crush(s) like you back?
nope, always not successful in that department.
6. What's your current mood?
somewhat tired.
7. What color shirt are you wearing?
Green.
8. What makes you happy, honestly?
Good friends.
9. Are you musically inclined?
I think I can sing quite okay. Can only play one song on Piano.
10. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?
A beautiful cat.
11. Ever had a near death experience?
er... I think so.
12. Something you do a lot?
watch TeeVee.
13. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Inspired by the cross. By A2J
14. Who did you copy and paste this survey from?
Ickleoriental.
15. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Mei Yan.
16. When was the last time you cried?
Sunday. I missed my Dad.
17. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Do everything at the speed of lightning. I like to get things done quickly.
18. What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex?
Height.
20. What’s your biggest secret?
It'll not be a secret anymore if that was said.
21. What's your favorite color?
yellow... white...
22. When was the last time you lied?
huh?
23. Do you watch kiddy tv shows or movies?
with my kids, yes.
24. Do you have a best friend?
Used to. I thought.
25. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
I'll have a more positive outlook of life.
26. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Mineral water.
27. Do you speak any other language?
Mandarin.
28. What’s your biggest regret?
Never thought of it.

Monday, March 12, 2007

how many and much is good...

I had my nephews over the whole of 9 days last week. They are 12 and 10. It gave me the chance to see if I could take care of 4 children as if they are of my own. It was all good, as it turns out, they were very obedient and great boys. Meal menu planned, laid down some simple houserules, went through with the 4 kids on their school tests/spelling etc... hey, I'm a pro!
It is not bad an idea to have so many kids in the house, we were able to fill up the monopoly and risk boardgame players. We had more exchanges of ideas on the TV programme we were watching. The house was filled with more laughter and quarrels. But overall, there was more energy filling up the space. But it was still such a short time to access whether it's a joy or pain to have that many children of my own.
I was and am content with just my 2 kids. I'm definitely stopping at 2 and have zero intentions and desires to have more. However, I don't deny that it's a joy to have more kids.. Whatever, God gave us children as like talents. We would need to be good steward over them.

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Nathan had shown some great improvements in doing some discipline work on his own since this week's school break. He read the Bible and did some home assessment without my asking! That's showing really good signs of maturity.

I had some me-me time at the jog but there were some mental block when I did the rounds, I could only wrap up with 1.4km today. I did 1.9km last fri. Somewhat dissappointed that my stamina did not build up since but the goal is to do 2.4km by end of this week.

AT work, though it was planned that my trip to US was gonna be mid April, it might happen earlier.. uh oh. my boss will let me know when I'll be fed to the sharks.
So Jeff, if you are reading this, I may make my appearance earlier than I'm willing to.

Hubby is super stressed for his work but he had some great news to share. He's promoted! Thank God for His providence and blessings!

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

going for that trip

My RO asked me if I am ready to go USA (alone) office for two weeks this morning. He mentioned this last month but it still felt too soon for me to tackle the tasks alone there.

I started this new portfolio barely two months ago, to be exact, it's only 7 weeks in the job. That is inclusive of the Lunar new year week! He thinks I'm ready, me thinks otherwise. I asked for another 4 weeks, which means I'll be meeting the US folks in April... I am actually both apprehensive and excited.

Apprehensive probably because of home..Although I've discussed this with the family, I'm not really sure if my hubby can cope. Especially now I am doing most of the fetching, guiding, coaching, planning etc. You see, Mums ALWAYS know better.
Besides being at home to make sure things are in place, I am definite going to miss my darlings. During the 4 days when my hubby and I was in Macau last Dec. As much as I enjoyed just being the two of us, I had wished that the kids were with me. I had thoughts of how they would enjoyed the walks, what they would say about the desserts, how their eyes would have delighted if they saw the height from the tower, how they would look in their cold weather clothings, the things we could have taught them... oh but not without the thought of them fighting each other, heh.

Excited cos.. for one, I've never travelled to USA before. And two, it's great learning experience for me. Not that it'll be easy and non-stress though cos I would prob be fed to the sharks of my colleagues there.. haha. It's business and in all honesty, being on a holiday and on work is an entirely different story. nonetheless, I would have mark this as yet another milestone in my career, an achievement for myself. yes, I'm a mum but also that career woman I set out to be when I wanted to finish my business degree.

Now you see, the struggle of women. We are that female who was groom to work in the society, we are also the female who has inclination to be more sensitive to caregiving.

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Indonesia Earthquake, Singapore Tremors

Tremors were felt in different parts of Singapore at about 12 noon today.

the first time, I was in the toilet doing the big business. I did not feel anything. The shit did not go anywhere else either.. And if anything would have happened then, it would be totally unglam.

the second tremor, we were discussing over the Nike sports outfit someone bought. Totally distracted by the thought of shopping. Did not felt it too.

But hubby's entire department were evacuated and asked to work from home. They activated the Continuity of Business (COB) process.

I'm still in the office, working.

something to think about..

we were having dinner on Sunday evening when Nathan asked a question all of the sudden.

The question:
Mum.. if we do something which we are not suppose to do. Would (in my head I was thinking he would ask - would God know) it be lying if I did not tell it?

Without a doubt, I said yes. Omission is also lying.
I did not go further into detail that there could be "white lie" which happens when you access the situation. I did not even probe him!

But later that night, I ponder upon this stange question he asked.

- is he hiding something from me?
- have I done something which I'm not suppose to and did not tell it to another person and he somehow know it (I could be unaware.. usually I will tell)
- did he want to tell me something else but I did not probe.

well, I left it open. He is already going to be 10 in October. He is really an intelligent boy who is also sensitive. I really hope that he would have by now develop the habit of telling me things instead of having to probe before sharing.

And this boy was so sweet. there is this debate the arena which I encouraged him to watch. This week's topic is Mother Knows Best. Mothers should stay at home to raise children.

He says that both parents knows best, mum just know better than dad.
Thanks alot for that confirmation son! haha

Friday, March 02, 2007

Busy with what..

These days, I'm glad that exercise is getting to be part of my regime to get back in shape. Mon, Wed and Fri 10pm - runs. Slowly increasing from 1.5K to 2K.. hope to get to the 5K, 10K in 6 to 12 months time.
Alternate fridays for cheong.

Thurs is Pilates. Got to work out those muscles to strengthen back and get that protuding tummy and flabby arms out of the way.

Weekends exercises will need to depend on the children's schedule.
Let's see..both kiddos will be doing Wushu and Ballet on Sat morning respectively. Afternoon will rest a while before going for swim. Oh, oh.. I did 3.5k (wrong), 500m swim. I felt my arms really aching.. and enlarged! But I will continue to do that and try to cut down on eating. all in the name of vanity, heh.

After morning church, we will need some rest after lunch. It will be grocery shopping for the week till 5pm and the kids will have their Jap and English class in the evening after dinner. Perhaps i'll squeeze in a do at home pilates during the evening slot. I'll alternate that with trying out of new recipe.

Well, after penning it down, I feel that life now is more in control. There is more me-time and family time besides office work. Yeah!

Monday, February 26, 2007

Food for thought and stomach

Sat morning, we were at tampines round market for breakfast. Ah girl is having her usual Soya milk with "You tiao" when she blurted, "Mummy look, they sell Sushi here too". I look up and indeed she was not entirely wrong, there it is... if you read the hanyu pinyin that is. in English Tasha says it is: Elephant rich Japanese sushi (heh)
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some time ago, the hubby took pains to queue two hours for this ...


It's really good and at S$1.20, it's such a bargain!

And the indulge before CNY even started.. Toast's chocolate cupcake! although steep at S$3.75, it's a reward food when you need it.

me, the monster or ...

Over the weekend, on Sat nite to be precise, I went into some hormonal rage. I realised that it was due to PMS later really.

After the dinner at Harbour city, well it had already kicked off some sparks between the hubby and I. It was just that my head was flooded with pain and I said things that provoke him, of which I had totally no intentions and did not think it was. Now, that IS a problem issn't it.
Then, in the middle of the night (1.40am) , my headache just grew and turning to him, I asked for the tiger balm that I thought it was at his side of the bed. He flared up and scream at me. I recalled being too hurt by his uncaring reaction and at the same time, afraid that he will hit me out of rage - something he had done before. All possible negative thoughts came all at once. That I did not come from a blessed family (ridiculed by my MIL a few times), that I was not someone who do work, home well. I could not hold friends together. I have no close girlfriend. No one ever replies the emails I send for encouragement etc.......
the thought of growing old with the hubby seems super bleak after I sat down at the living room to recover from the verbal blows. I felt I did not want to continue my marriage life with him at all. I proposed a divorce. Now, to think of it, I was whining for attention but did not know how.

Then, he was also not forgiving to the fact that I am so insensitive to his sleep routine and threatened that if I leave, he and the children will leave Christian faith.
I felt..... so sad or rather in mandarin å§”. Throbbing with headache, not only was I not being understood and taken care of, I was repremanded for kicking a fuss and at the same time threatened.
Then, I swallowed whatever feeling I felt at that point and ask for forgiveness for disturbing him from sleep. I got some medication to treat my headache myself. We were in bed at 2.45am.

He did express his regrets later in the morning and tells me he loves me. I did not answer and it could hurt him alot.
If you ask me now what my feelings are. I am numb. I know it must be Satan's attack but I don't know what to feel towards the hubby. I need no advise for now cos I will snap at any which comes along. That could signify that I still grudge him for treating me that shabbily.

Anyways... it's over right. yeah, it's just once in a bluemoon huge marital fight. Sometimes, it emerge with victory, sometimes, like this one, I emerge more disillusioned ever.

Friday, February 23, 2007

funny how we turned out

15 years ago, when pondorosa was a common place to date. This friend,G, brought me to view the panaromic view of Singapore from Swissotel, then this hotel was by some other name. He asked me if I could be his special girl. I could not recipocate and felt really really really bad telling him I could not. Because he was really a nice guy and gave me tons of encouragements when I was down. No, I never regretted us not being together. And yes, we are still friends after that. Afterall, we really almost grew up in the same family church.

After I move out of that church, there was a few times we met but was not really able to chat. We had the opportunity to stand by the roadside and spend an hour sharing each others lives yesterday. He just finished a project for the company I'm employed and I just returned to the same company after a year out.
There were some mutual friends we brought up during our conversation. And we had to admit that it was strange how some of us took on vocations that is totally..... unexpected.

to digress a little.. it made me recall how I had a huge crush on friend, J that many moons ago. He was then a promising and talented pianist, I loved his humour - I doubt he could share mine cos I was not very vocal at that time. He had lotsa charisma (my opinion) and he also sings really well. Come to think of it, it is easier to swoon girls with great singing skills... right??
Anyhow, he didn't like me the way lovers do, I was just a friend, a good friend. He blatantly tells me that when we are older, we would laugh about how, you know, we did not get together. I did not think it was gonna be that way then. Not that I was bitter.. really. I thought being 30 is old and I'll never reach that age fast enough. haha.
Oh, I still treasure the drawing of a cartoon of me.. He remains now a sweet friend of mine. We were never soulmates anyway. Hope to meet up with him in USA when I visit the place.

there is also M, who is a dear, dear, dear friend of mine. He is so ever cynical and have all sort of weird ideas. We are not so in touch now but i have tons of memories of the way things were.

So there, we have now friends (some may be distant friend) who are pastor, entrepenuer, MNC employee, MOE teacher, SAHM, rich sales person, church worker, designer, lawyer, immigrants in USA/Australia....

some of us who did not know what be inspire, some of us are already what we inspired to be...


edit:

here is the pic which I still have from J.


Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Lunar New Year

Whee..with the 2 days holiday that is right after weekend, there were 4 full days to rest and not think of work. I liked the way my holidays turned out.

This year, to respect that fact that my dad passed on last March, we intent to keep CNY celebration lowkey... not as if I am in the mood too. I practically left most of the CNY stuff to my hubby, he got some goodies, put up the deco and bought the flowers. He almost bought the tulips just for me.. so sweet of him, but I didn't allow that to happen.
flowers for his mum, 20 roses at 10 bucks!

Friday nite saw me going home at 5.30pm (almost sharp) and we took the kids out for our own nuclear family dinner at soup restaurant at the airport cos it's near. It's the first for the kids and the hubby (cos they are forever tempted by sakae sushi to try others food) and they loved it. The soup has so much goodness, the begger's ribs were finger linking, the chicken and the ginger sauce so refreshing, there were 2nd, 3rd, last helpings to the claypot tofu, the veg if the kids eat chilli would have been great but it was delicious too.. we polished off the dishes and every bit of rice. So satisfying with the capital S that we did not have room to snack on Popeye wings .

We had a round of family boardgame before we hit the z-land.

The next day, the hubby and I were inspired to jog at the nearby park since we had no obligations/classes to rush. it's first for me to run continously for 2km. Nathan who is usually most unkeen to work out, ran with me too. We felt superb-ly refreshed! We promised ourselves that we must do the jog more often.

The reunion dinner with my hubby's extended family was pretty standard. At his mum's place, "free" healthy homecook food (steamboat) - what more can I asked *wink*. No, I am not complaining but every year, I always lament that it did not feel like a reunion dinner as each will take their bowls of rice and veg and sits in front of the Tee Vee. Those who mahjong-ed will rush thru meal so that players can play longer... well, that IS the tradition for their family, I guess.

The following days were bits and pieces of visitations.. there is however one which was memorable cos I almost teared on the spot. We went to my MIL's second's bro's home, he saw my girl (the only grandchild who is willing to pay visits this year) and started pouring play gifts .. poppers, fuzzy yo yo, etc. It reminded me so much of Dad as this is prob something he would have done if he is still around. I really still can't bear the thought that he's not around anymore.

Day 3 was mainly for ourselves. The hubby and I jogged again without the kids, they wanted to laze around in bed. I stretch an extra 500m to add my previous 2km.. (in hopes to rid the accumulated goodies fat). oh, and I managed to get the speakers for my ipod before before heading my mum's place. with that, it wrapped up my New year.
I did not feel like I was dragged in to work on 4th day of lunar year, so that is a good sign. Cheers to the rest of the months to come!

Friday, February 16, 2007

VD outing

Intially, the hubby wanted to bring me to Kusu Island.. It's strange how he came up with this idea.. insisting that the lagoon there is one of the best spot to swim and relag, but apparently I was totally NOT keen. For one, looking at turtles are not really romatic, right? For two, we can always check into Sentosa for some lagoon fun.
So he went along with the idea to have breakfast at Vivocity, then did almost the whole day of shopping. He did try to book a couple spa but the appointment available was at 9.30pm and will have to end the session at 11.30pm. With the thought that those spa-ers will be dog tired by then and the spa-ees (us) may not enjoy the fullest, we did not go for it.
The budget for the spa however did not go to waste.. *hee*

4 beautiful pcs for 200 bucks.
my favourite piece.


3rd level of the mall, there is a pet safari.. and look how some dogs are dressed for CNY.
see those ears on the poooodle

hey, what nice tail you have there Maltese

Thursday, February 15, 2007

the retort

We were preparing to watch RENT at 10pm as it was the children's bedtime. My daughter buay-gum-wan that she cannot watch the movie, asked

Tasha: why cannot watch?!?!
Me: it's not suitable for you to watch now..
hubby: when you are 18 years old, we'll let you watch.
Tasha: but the CD would be spoilt by then and I won't be able to watch ANYMORE!!
me+hubby: o_O

Cupcakes

Had free tasting on Mong's cupcakes - a free ride from other people who will be ordering :P.

The chocolate cakes are absolutely beautiful and yummy, did not manage to eat the plain flavour though. The icing are not so sweet.

verdict: die die must try!!


The tarts are soo good too. The photos here does not make much justice cos it's taken with phone camera, I had to quickly take the shots before they are being gobbled.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Happy Valentine's

For many years, 14th Feb is always ignored.
This year, for some reason, the hubby insists that I take leave, which I reluntantly obliged. Cos for one, I am not so sure if I would enjoy the plans he may have.

I got a gift for him though. It shall be his post christmas, valentine's, pre-birthday gift as it costs me quite a bit... *ker ching*
He will be wearing the Oris, F1 skeleton face.


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Tuesday, February 06, 2007

the whine

Listening to: Jesus is Alive

Tasha is having a flu. cannot breathe... throat really very painful.. she complains.
Poor sweetie, rushed to the pharma to buy the "pipa gao" and strepsils to soothe them a little.
After that, she rattled on to tell me the cry event that happened on the school bus. She then retreat to her room to finish up her work.

Just so please with my darling girl's progress.

All excited... for HIM

Listening to: praise and worship 2

My first love came back. With a vengence... After the teacher's retreat last month, I found my lukewarm attitude disgusting. I am falling in love over again with Christ.
I hope to spread that excitement to my cell group members then so forth. I suppose, it was a year of real test yesteryear where the workplace has totally no believers. At this new workplace, brother Isaac is so ever encouraging. My mentor wants to attend church again (he stopped going for two years now).
All fired up now, I hope to do a little more than I am doing now.
Starting by emailing encouraging experiences, for sometimes over coversation, i may miss out the most important thing - quotation from the Word.

sometime from a couple of week ago:
This morning, a colleague brought breakfast for about20 of us in the department. His reason for doing sowas to accumulate favour/blessings (ji fu) - as inconfucion studies. (kong zi)As Christians, we do not have that above concept whenwe do good deeds. But on what motivations do we actthat deed?Surely, we know that when we are filled with the loveof God and recognise it, it will become our actions. -> let's really be active in putting discipline in ourlove for others, be it the community or even our cellmembers.We discuss last BS on the love of God and one of theparable to illustrate that is the prodigal son.We know that the father in the parable RAN to hisyounger son. Giving him the robe (of righteousness),the gold ring (inheritance) and the shoes/sandals(son).There is also this elder brother who got upset withhis father for doing being so elated over the youngerunfilial son's homecoming. And reinstating all of thebrother's previous status. While all this while, theelder brother thought that he sacrifice and staybehind to work for his father.the father explained "all I have is already yours"God is concern for you, he wants to protect you andgive you all of what is His to you. However, you donot have to sacrifice for Him. In the case of theelder son, he probably was upset that he sacrifice didnot get recognition. Are we sometimes like that?Thinking that we have given the blessings to othersand seemingly has no returns. Then feel tired andupset?-> When you are feeling tired on loving others,remember that your strength comes from God.The experience of Christ love should be spread aroundus. That is a baby step to bring one to know Christ.Let's continue to uphold everyone of us in prayers.

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last week :A brother in christ is stumbled by a sister in christ's testimony

Galatians 5:25-6:6 25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in stepwith the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited,provoking and envying each other. 1 Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you whoare spiritual should restore him gently. .... 2 Carryeach other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfillthe law of Christ. 3 If anyone thinks he is somethingwhen he is nothing, he deceives himself. 4 Each oneshould test his own actions. Then he can take pride inhimself, without comparing himself to somebody else, 5for each one should carry his own load. 6 Anyone who receives instruction in the word mustshare all good things with his instructor.

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When we ponder upon the brother's (in christ)reaction,it is evident that he is critical of the sister'sactions. Galatians 5:25-6:5 reminds us again that weshould resolve our planks before judging. Test our ownactions but not comparing. Do not let that hinder usfrom obeying the law of Christ.We shall not dwell on the technicalities of the "moralfault" but focus on doing what is right - for thisinstance, be happy for the sister (in Christ) forbeing out of trouble and continual encourage her,gently to strengthen her walk with Christ.Remember how Jesus was different from the teachers ofthe law. Above all laws, LOVE your fellow men. This isyet another huge topic to discuss. AS for whether what the sister had done was morallyright or wrong... you decide :)Lastly, I am no instructor but please share yourinstruction from the word and share all good thingswith all.(galatians 6:6)

Monday, February 05, 2007

Nathan

The children are discouraged to have too much water before going to bed. Bedtime is strictly 10pm. Before 9pm, I make it a point to remind them to have a cup of water.. provided I am always at home by that time.
Somehow, perhaps motivated by some internal defiance, they like to have at least half a cup of water before bed. Tasha still is able to wake up and go to the toilet by herself. Nathan have had three days of bed wetting thrice in a row in Jan. Thank God for helper to clean up. However, it bothered me.
He says that he dreams of the act (going to toilet) thus it happens in reality. But so many times in a week?!
I noticed last night that his tongue has a patch that the Sinseh says that it is not normal. Something to do with his kidney. He did acupuncture on him and there were some apparent help.
Tonight, the hubby is bringing him to the sinseh to check on the condition again... have to remind him to look into his sinus problem too.

ready?

The hair is now short. Not that I am totally displeased with the cut... it's does make me look more mature and I have the tendency to worry about the visible balding patch on top of my head. on top of that, it's been a long time since i had short hair - now presenting.. the fierce look.



small editing:
it's the 2nd day I have survived at work place with my short hair. I don't even recognise myself when I see my own reflection on the windows.
Suddenly, all the MRT commuter's hair is all so much better than mine. I have the urge to buy a wig for myself. I must stand firm on my decisions of not having short hair in future. NO more short hair ever!!

Friday, February 02, 2007

Oh my!

Finally, going to the hairdresser this evening. It badly needs a trim, give the right colour for the white hair (growing old pains) and some treatment to the hair ends. This is my hair now. I will update the "then" in later post. Pics from my current sony ericsson W810i.

work front:
I felt pretty accomplished after getting back the cases to some of the sales people last evening. But this morning, it became crap all over again! And I am so stuck at most cases now, plus communicating over emails with different time zones is just too hard.. urgh. BUT, I am still glad to take a different role now esp having the experience to deal with overseas partners.
home front:
last night, Nathan and Natasha has calls from school friends.
Nathan is starting to want to hide things from moi. I asked him what is the name of the caller, in his exact words "can I don't tell you?" *grasp*, he's 9 going 10 years old and becoming so secretive?
I charmed him to tell me the name (which is Amelia). I did not comment a single thing in case he refuse to share anything with me in future. note to self : not to tease him anymore about girl school friends.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

these are a few of my nice things for today...

Our corporate ang bao came in a pouch that is re-usable.. I likey... but not sure what it can be used for except as a pencil case.
last Oct, I brought the children for a studio make over photo shoot, inspired by howMong's macy turn out.
These two pics is currently part of the deco on my office table:)




Con called with USA colleagues this morning for a introductory. People are nice and pleasant but challenging market to tackle, I'll have already done some cases which is so. Thank God for good mentor, hope he'll remain helpful for a long time.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Back breaking experience

Our dept is trying to do a keep fit 2007. Most of them will need to cook up some ideas on what to do for the month. K, our yoga enthuse, put us up into a trial lesson on Kryoga yesterday. There were some last minute shift in timing, we end up joining the intermediate class. My mental state was not really prepared for it, but my body was pushing through. Some of the meditation bits, praying posture, free mind felt really unappropriate personally but I was praying the whole time. Overall it's still fun to do it with colleagues, where everyone could "complain" about the aches together.

Feb is badminton month. Looking forward to some fun.

The hubby and I will be starting on our golf lessons tomorrow. I've got some practices at the range but I always end up hurting my left palm after a few stokes. Hopefully getting the techniques will help to improve that.

Monday, January 29, 2007

some briefs over weekend

before the hubby became seriously sick.. he gave us a treat from his bonus money at Cystal Jade Palace at Ngee Ann City. love the soup.
Bought the children school shoes. The girl says that her school friends are already saying things about her shoes (worn since K2 - but hey, there ain't no hole in shoe yet).
My son says that he wants to go my parent's in law's place. We should have paid a visit but ... the man is sick.

the MC king a.k.a the hubby

Jan alone, the hubby is sick twice. the first was on the 15th when he had severe lao sai.. It was really rather serious, not that he is faking it or something. Then over the weekends, he has this swollen left eye and a large pimple that caused his throat to be scratchy and fever. And he is on sick leave again today. He says his boss is totally unhappy.

Last year, the hubby finished using all the medical entitlement. I wonder if he is going to hit the same record this year. When I cleared the fridge of the out dated medicines, I visited the doc only once last year - wow... I'm a super mum, yeah. AND, I can feel that my MIL not happy with me not taking good care of his son. hrmph.

Perhaps I should make him go into detox programme to kill his sick germs.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

R.I.P. while I get my hands on the new one

that's RIP for my 43" LG standing TeeVee. It went into disco crackling mode and all of the sudden, the intestines burst and died.

We now squeeze in the master bedroom for the few shows we catch and we have to go a-TeeVee hunting. With all these plasma, HD, integrated etc etc.. to go for those or to stick to something normal and Toshiba/JVC/phillips... well well.

Monday, January 22, 2007

frustrated...

yesterday, between his 4th elder sis and hubby and myself, we had quite a bit of a heated session on whether going the Junior College (JC) route or the polytechnic one is better. To put it simply, there is no right or wrong but the husband and his sister is so mule about it. Now, that's the thing is really pissing me. I turned to my niece (who is the cause of the debate cos she is taking her 'O's this yr), and told her that long term success comes with passion. She is the president in the design and art cca and not to mention that she is really talented in that arena. Her math is really good too. She aims to VJ and she is very confident that she'll get in. Period. It's her choice.


the husband refuse to budge, insisting that what he is trying to prove is that Poly is an alternative, if not, the better alternative. *sigh* anyways, it's just that. I am so dreading the day my son or daughter has to make that choice.

then as we debated on the (same) topic even as we went on to do our weekly grocery shopping at Suntec. Upon the reaching the carpark as we were ready to leave, we found that we were stuck by a total idiot. The way he/she parked illegally made it impossible for us to get out without risking scratches. Stupid stupid toyota corolla owner.
From 5pm to 5.20pm, all I could do is stand there and get the unhelpful stares from the drivers who saw the situation. I was totally exasperated.


the open door is my car, behind my car is the pillar. how dumb can that driver get?!?!
after paging with no response, I suggested to my hubby that he drives and we try to do the reversal exit. no choice. we managed out (wished we could have done it earlier) but no other car could park into that proper lot.
1) do you think going to JC or Poly makes a difference?
2) are some Singaporean driver dense?

the difference

you know, to wake up to a day is just another wonderful day God has given. BUT, why is my body system so strange and is able to differentiate weekday and weekend??!!

Saturday saw me waking up at 7am and could not go back to sleep at all. I was like so caffine alert. Somehow, sweetie hubby could sense that i was wide awake and suggested to roller blade at EC. So we did and it was a good sweat and chill out session. It ended with a delicious morning breakfast at the famous prawn mee at Katong before we start the jam pack day to ferry children for their ballet, swimming. I was totally ALIVE throughout the day till 11pm.

Last night, I was determine to be equally alert (like Sat) when I tried to wake up at 7.15am. The body system didn't listen up. Plus, last night I had to dream peculiar stuff like... I was deliberating to go for an operation but I told them I needed to go to work. I woke at 5.56am and literally forced myself back to dreamland and that irritating dream continued till I force my feet out of the bed at 7.25am. URGH. Now at workplace, the tired eyes is calling me to take 5.. I just kinda feel like going to bed.
AND, I just started out last week at this work so it's still interesting and nice. I like my job scope and all. No reason to feel lethagic at this point!

Friday, January 05, 2007

resolutions for the brand new year

i've got some real updates to do and since i've got time be SAHM with maid at the moment, i really should buck up but well the lazy bone got better of moi.

The new year went by with us zonking out at 11pm.. i was woken up by my neighbours proclaiming with bangs and such that the count down to 2007 was done. Although it was not a wild welcome to the new year for us, at least we had peace, joy and health at the last minute of 2006.

On the 1st day of the year, after hussle and brussle to get Natasha's room done with the Princess theme (she slept in the same room with the brother since she was 6 months old)... we asked each other what is our 2007 resolution.

Hubby - exercise and sign up for gym membership. I told him to do it later cos it'll be "peak" period for at least the first 3 months of the year. I guess it's a common resolution.

Son - to get all band 1 for this year. He had 3 out of 4 subjects band 1 for P3. Chinese was the culprit.

Daughter - she er..... dunch noe. She's started her P1, will update on that soon.

moi- well, as much as i am quite done with setting resolutions ( i did not set any for 2006) . I decided to set a seemingly easy goal but actually idealistic one. NO MSG for home - at least most of the time.
That means - no instant noodles, no snacks that contain MSG. I will really have to do marketing with detail scrutinising on the packing.

so that's that. May 2007 brings pleasant memories with our loved ones.